My personal challenge

I am a domestic animal. That’s why, as a child, when I thought about my future, I didn’t really have a clear vision of me as a human being, working outside the home. Instead, I had a vivid image of myself as a grown-up: I would have become a mother.

I have always loved learning and, since childhood, I have been fond of writing. Essays, more than fiction.
I have grown up in a house full of books, so I was naturally attracted by reading.

Even though I purchased with passion a degree in Dramatic Arts, I had never had the real intention of doing it for a living. Moreover, I have never been focused on finding a professional job.

For some years, absolutely too many, I simply did what I was expected to do: I got into the labour market, infused with a diligent spirit of cooperation and grateful feelings towards my family.

Matteo and I got married with tons of joy: more full of the enthusiastic idea of building soon a family, than thinking about some real long term projects.
Being a wife and becoming a mother are both choices I made, for the first time in my life, looking deeply at my interior being, instead of obeying to my old bulky social self.

I preserve all three of my positive pregnancy tests. They are lasting signs of a physical and psychological revolution. Of a rush into a just born future, of a way back to my inner self and to my childhood memories and of a re-discovering path towards my true nature.

My children have shown me, sometimes with never-ending sweetness, sometimes with strong determination, to reckon with myself, forcing me to face many skeletons in the closet. And stimulated me to live mindfully and intentionally my secret childhood vision.
From those moments on, nothing has never been the same, anymore.

Surely, it’s not always bread and roses: being a parent is not usually simple and not always exciting. especially when children make us so angry, avid of crumbs of free time without minors nearby, stressed by frantic lifestyle and longing for some moments together as a couple…but..let’s admit…couple who?
And I think so many women are so right when they face themselves honestly and confront with other moms on their parenting and motherhood “dark sides”.

Anyway, becoming a mother doesn’t really mean to live an absolute state precluded to happiness and personal achievement. Undoubtedly, every mother brings within a different story.
In my experience, motherhood has made me a widely happier person and opened me the path to a personal growth that sometimes may still be difficult and painful, but it’s always exciting and fascinating.

And then, here they are, my children.
The funniest human beings of the entire universe!
Thanks to them, I have discovered my most instinctive laugh.

When I became a mother, I didn’t know anything about babies, and excepting for my nephew, I haven’t really taken anyone in my arms.
I felt as there was an unwritten (and maybe untold) law and according to it, mothers will know “naturally” what to do with their newborn babies.
Even though I attach great value to intuition and instinctive wisdom of mothers, I surely know that my experience would have been easier and sometimes less stressful, if I only would have known some little strategies or practical advices to help me out through daily living with children.

One step at a time, through blogs and books, I have come to know different motherhood realities, from all over the world. Meanwhile, every experience has so much in common with the others, so it helped me so much in solving lots of doubts and in stimulating in me and my family new and exciting horizons.

I do believe that every mom needs to equip herself with practical tools to allow her to express herself at her best with children, helping them in becoming stronger and coming over their weaknesses.
As someone wisely says, we pretend professional attitude in every compartment of our lives, why should our children receive less?
Our children deserve us at our own best: enthusiastic, determined and competent mothers.
And I didn’t mean perfect: I have meant at our own best.

Children, with their spontaneity and innocence, bring us in front of new challenges everyday. And I believe this is a great incentive for me.
I often make mistakes and I feel tremendously inadequate, but I do know this is a path I want to walk in with joy and mindfulness, doing my best every day to keep on with enthusiasm and with a serene and stimulating family living.